I probably should seek a therapist :p

~Joel

I blame peri for the inspiration :p

~Joel

Oops I think at some point I said I would post to this thing more ... yeah maybe I can start that at some point lol.

One problem is that I lead a devastatingly boring life. I go to work and then I tend to zone out and not do much. I guess I do have the occasional interesting story. Anyways so I've been trying to think of creative experiences to go on so I can blog about them and have some more interesting things to write about.

Really I've only come up with 2 ideas so far [I know lame but meh maybe I'll take some time today to try and come up with some more]. The problem is the 2 ideas I came up with I may not even end up doing [you will see why in a bit].

Idea #1

Adventures in acupuncture

I was bored yesterday and I really don't even know what prompted it but I started to google acupuncture places in my city and see what the rates were. It seems like a interesting experience and who knows maybe it could help with some of my anxiety / stress. If nothing else it would be cool to blog about. The downside is that acupuncture is expensive. Most initial assessments run $80-150 with follow up visits ranging from $35-65 and most places suggest 8-10 treatments. That's a total of $360-800 with no guarantee of well anything. That seems a bit expensive for just a blogging experience. Still the cheaper ones don't seem to bad and I would like to try it at least a couple of times.

Idea #2

Perhaps you have forgotten I have somewhat of a dark mind so um yeah . . .

Go to a funeral

Now I'm not expecting anyone of my family to die so I was thinking of maybe going to a strangers funeral but that seems kind of disrespectful and what would I say if people started talking to me.

Some guy at the funeral named Louis: So how did you know Steve?
Me: Um I was his poker buddy
Louis: Steve was very anti gambling??
Me: Oh I meant I cleaned his pool
Louis: He did not have a pool
Me: Ok ok so my life is really lame and I wanted things to blog about so I went to some stranger's funeral
Louis: You are sick

Yeah probably not doing this one though who knows maybe the person would have found it hilarious. If I die strangers feel free to come to my funeral.

Oh a blind date would be funny to though I have no friends that would set me up so strike 3 on that one as well.

I don't know you guys have any ideas?

~Joel

Dear mom no girl will ever start anything resembling a relationship with me. Please accept this, I did a long time ago.

So today I got all the paperwork to go in next week to register my car ... I got a new car about 3 months ago. It is WAAYYYY more fuel efficient then the truck I used to have. It's a silver 2004 Acura RSX. So far I like it! No issues and great on gas.

Other then that I've been working really hard to craft my own game called Disaster Wedding [kind of a crazy party game] Anyways there is a site where you can self publish things like that so I have a order in for my game. I think the cards should turn out pretty good. I'll have to take some pics when they get in.

I also got a printer because for some odd reason I keep running into situations where I need one and got annoyed enough to just dang buy a cheap one at Target.

So it's kind of a expensive month at the moment but hopefully major purchases are behind me.

Wow it's been so long and really I think I might start using this journal more. Really I faded out because most my real life friends switched to facebook and it's near impossible for me to keep up with 2 social networking sites at the same time. But I miss LJ a lot. Facebook is not really cut out for journaling just status updates and by God I really need to journal some days.

I'm sure I may have at least a few followers here but really I think this will help me just get my thoughts out and so it will probably not make a lot of sense or maybe it will make all the sense in the world.

I wanted to burn really badly today and I don't really have a reason why I just have times where I feel so alone and I've tried to connect the best way I know how and things never seem to progress. I still have days like this where I feel utterly invisible and no one really gets me and I can't stand the isolation.

Bleh I am going to try and sleep it off but it's hard.

I've been told I really don't splurge or buy stuff for myself that I am not a spur of the moment shopper and never buy anything on impulse. Well most of this was on impulse and it's all for me MWAHH ha ha lol

Here's where most, but not quite all, of my change went to on Amazon:

1: http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00065FZO0/ref=oss_product

I love the symbol of the phoenix and I thought this would be a fun piece to wear. It is certainly uni-sex and I liked the look of it

2: http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B000H0MKOC/ref=oss_product

I love the cynical edginess of this comedy and can't seem to find it at any store.

3: http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B001NXG9VW/ref=oss_product

OMG so fricken awesome! I'm super excited for this one. It's a seat belt belt!!! Hmm people may like pushing the button though .... does this mean more girls will want to get into my pants? JOKING LOL I'm joking he he he but it's still awesome.

4: http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B001LNO6O6/ref=oss_product

Looks like a cool shirt. I like the vertical wide stripes.

5: http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B002QU1Z1K/ref=oss_product

This looks like Buffy but with a werewolf and I need a new show to get into.

6. http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0060731338/ref=oss_product

I've wanted to read this book since it came out. It sounds pretty interesting at least it does to me. The author uses principles of economics to argue interesting viewpoints such as I think one chapter explains how swimming pools are more dangerous then guns. I think this is kind of one of those that you have to read the back of the book to understand I'm not sure I'm explaining it well.

7. http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0345496256/ref=oss_productb

I actually gt all 3 to this set. Mainly I thought it would go well with the DVD and I love reading.


8. http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B000C1Z8JK/ref=oss_product

Not going to lie COMPLETE impulse buy lol. I have some formal things coming up and randomly browsed colognes and after seeing this got a good feedback review from several and reading the comments left I bought it lol. Don't say I never impulse shop :p

9. http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B002R33PSM/ref=oss_product

Awesomeness in bracelet form

10. http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B000JCATHI/ref=oss_product

Doctor put me on some sleeping meds because of insomnia but my prescription is almost gone and I can't get it refilled because the medication is habit forming. I figured I'd see if this would help relax me.

11. http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B000GPCBZG/ref=oss_product

I like the retro look of these ties so I bought one :p

~Joel

I had a pretty horrible day today although at this point that does not surprise me a ton. Some idiots ordered like fricken 45 pizzas today I got to work for like 10 hours ... so tired.

I really would quit my job I hate it but I'm coming to the conclusion that I am meant for nothing.

I gave myself a good sized burn on my leg it draws a lot of attention at the gym lol. Maybe I should invest in some like track type pants so people stop staring at my leg.

I don't know I've come to become more and more uncaring what people think of my scars. You don't knowme so what the hell do I care?

Ok ok good things hmmm

I had a pretty ridicoulous amount of change



I converted all of it into a Amazon gift card so now I get to buy pure selfish things lol.

The total was like $221 and some odd change.

I'll let you know what I get with it all when I figure it out :p Anyways I look forward to this week-end because there is not a whole lot I need to do so it will give me time to relax. Life has been busy blerg

Oh gosh where do I even start?

I have missed all my lj friends so much!!!

I use facebook a fair amount now but have realized that it s a bit harder to write long actual journal type entries and this journal is at least a little more private. I feel a bt safer talking about struggles and things I'm going through then on facebook where even parts of my family can read posts.

So I may try doing both and see if I have enough time to do both facebook and live journal.

So yeah I'm still working at the same place but exciting news I applied to several web sites to be a content writer and they have assigned me some articles to write!! I was not expecting much but at least I get to do some actual work and hopefully things will work out because I think I would be much happier with that kind of job!

Oh also I joined a gym.

It was a bit expensive but I think it was worth it because it gives me a great healthy way to get adrenaline going and burn off stress. I've been there maybe 3 weeks and have been doing pretty well at being regular at both cardio and weight training. I've already seen some small changes that have encouraged me so that is awesome.

Hmm other news is my room-mate got a shitzu puppy which he named Baxter. Baxter likes to bite things currently because he is teething but he is pretty cute. I do have a small reaction but it is manageable and with time it should lessen.

okay well sadly it is late and I work early so I will try to update tomorrow and write in lj much more often.

Again I've missed all my lj friends <3
Hope to catch up with everyone soon :)

~Joel